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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 05:11

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I never cut or harmed myself..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

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Im still living with it.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

But it wasn’t much.

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But, we were locked up after school.

I will be 64.

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I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He knew the spot.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

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She was in good health!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

She wouldn,t have been !

Was to survive, this bastard.

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As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

What happened to your school bully?

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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One cannot live in the past .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

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My family never makes their pension either.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

What is it like to date a women 20 years younger than yourself?

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Can you give an example of a documentary where the person telling the story believed it to be true, but it turned out to be false?

She loved him until the end.

All the time i was locked up.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

When she asked me how she looked .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Especially a lifetime of it.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

So whats the point in blame.

She married twice! .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Where the ultimate outsiders.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He resisted the act ,that day.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Why did i forgive my father ?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

My life is so biszare .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

This is soul school!.

I couldn’t, believe it.

We all went to grammer schools

I write beautiful poetry .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I waited trembling.

I don,t even have a pension.

And i lived it daily.

I was scared of men, in general

So, i spoilt her more .

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Would this be the day?

I know ,a lot about trauma.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

We were not on the streets..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

What did i know ?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Comes on , in middle age.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

As i do to all so called friends.?

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

It was going to be , some day.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Put me off passion for life!!

But ive been too sick for many years..

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Who then, do I blame.?

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I was seconnd youngest,

I was very sick at this time too.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I said to her

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I was 9 years of age.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Ive learnt so much.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She found it foreign!.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I have no regrets .

I think the readers, may guess!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I could never make a relationship work though!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them